As I was talking to my sponsor the other day she brought up the fact Mother’s Day is this weekend and asked if I had plans. Before I could even answer her, she started to cry. It has been a few years since her mother passed away, but each year she still says to herself “what should I get mom this year?” but quickly the reality hits her. My sponsor always reminds me to never stop being grateful to still have my mom around. And this got me thinking…
“There’s no way I can pay you back,
But the plan is to show you that I understand,
you are appreciated”
But the plan is to show you that I understand,
you are appreciated”
This got me thinking about how truly blessed I am today to not only be clean and sober but to have my mother to support me. I have a mother that has always walked in when the world walked out. When she was behind me, I did not have to look back in fear; she never let me down. I reflect how when I got to the worst possible stage in my life, even contemplated suicide, she fought for me. And to be honest, that gave me the hope to keep going. I could not leave her with a funeral because not once in my life did she ever leave me. There was never a limit to what she did and always gave me so many sweet memories. When I went to Genesis House I felt terrible my mother had to put out so much money but she said to me, “there is no price on a life.” So, I stay sober and work to be the woman she raised me to be. With Mother’s Day coming up and on every day of the year, I am so grateful to have her as my mother. I aspire to be the selfless, kind and loving mother she is to me. Having a son now, I can understand her dedication and never-ending love.
Sunday, remember how special it is to be in recovery with the ability to have appreciation for loved ones. Try to imagine how many times these special women have prayed for us to get well? In recovery, they see us doing just that and their prayers are being answered.
Happy Mother’s Day 2017!
Skyler N